awaken by the silences.

buzzz. buzzz. buzzz.

the vibrating sounds of Tommy's phone wake him up. 2.30 a.m. "who the hell would be texting me at this kind of time?", Tommy wonders. he reaches to his phone and tries to open his eyes as big as he can.

1 New Messages : Unknown Number.

"Hmm." Tommy hit the read button. his curiousity is at its peak.

damn you asshole. who the hell you think you are? you think you are good enough huh? your life is miserable right now. you might even don't have a future. you might be ending up homeless, poor and living out on the street. who do you think you are to talk and give motivation to others when you are having a shitty life right now? and i am not a bitch. you just remember. you are an asshole yourself. you are a mistake. one day i'll show it to you how wonderful my life gonna be with my new boyfriend. God answer my prayer. He gave him into my life. i'll do it. i'll show how happy i could be. you remember yourself, asshole.

an angry text messages. in a middle of the night. who else would it be. "haih." sigh Tommy. yup. he is living a shitty life right. he was an asshole before. he wasn't perfect. the text messages sent to him was true. most of it. but he has his reason. and he never have to state it. Tommy put the phone away. trying to sleep. but he can't. not after reading that disturbing messages.

so what? yup. i am living a shitty life. well, u never care. all this time it is always about you. you're always have to be the one who have to be pleased. i'm the one who serves. remember. i am the one who broke up with you. at least you should be grateful that you are happy now and stay out of my life. i've completely took out myself from you. so why don't you just get out of mine? i'm not the one who disturb you in the middle of the night. i'm not the one who sending all those disturbing messages. emh maybe i did. yes i did. but that is after i realise that u always wanted to hurt me. it's true. it's hard to forget you. i did miss you. i love u a lot. so what do you expect? i am putting myself together now. i think what i did now was nothing. compare to what you did to me before when i want to break with you. i'm sure you forgot how psychopathic you have been before. so just, stay out of my life.

it's been hard for tommy. to live like this. but he knows, he don't have to fight anymore. this is not his fight. what he wanted all along was just a normal life. he might be broken up inside but he can see, the life outside him are turning back to normal. "Thank god."

buzzz. buzzz. buzzz.

another text messages came. "haih." Tommy sighed. and then suddenly, his phone rings.

Incoming Call : Amy

" i couldn't sleep. just want to check you out. you okay baby?" said Amy. her voice was so soft and calming. like a lullaby that could send thousand of babies to sleep.

" i'm fine baby. don't you worry. i love you. now go to sleep will ya? i don't want my baby waking up with a sore eyes like a panda next morning. " Tommy replied. sarcastically.

"haha. u always joking baby. when will you ever be serious? " ask Amy. with a little laugh that can be heard clearly in the silences of the night.

" i'm always serious when i needed to be honey. don't worry. hehe. now go to sleep. don't you worry" said Tommy. he sounded like he really care for her. more than he care for himself.

"okay baby. Goodnyte".

"goodnite".

Tommy smiles. Amy always have been the one who stands beside him. they knew each other for so long. he knew he have to keep the girl near to him or he will lose her one day.

2 New Messages : Unknown Number.

"screw you."

He hit the delete button and never read them. why should he. as for now, Tommy knew that he have his life just for himself. there is no more Gina in his life. he should make his life great. and it is not about proving anything to anybody. it is just for him, his family, and for the future family of his own.

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'You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.' Captain Mike from the Curious Case Of Benjamin Button.