"Why so serious? Let's put a smile on that face!"

quote by The Joker in The Dark Knight. The Joker, the only reason why i watched the movie. plus, with the controversial death of Heath Ledger at the moment of course.

so, why so serious? is it hard to put a smile on your face?

yes it is. it is hard to smile when suddenly all eyes are turns to you when you are entering a places full of crowds. like your balls are hanging out of your pants.

yes it is. if you are shy and lack of self confidence and you have no idea how to gain it. and when you think that you are way hotter than brad pitt. (in malay, perasan lebih)

yes it is. if you are in a crowd full of zombies. and you are thinking how hungry you have been.

yes it is. when i decided to stay away, you came back and hurts a lot more. (??)

yes it is. when you badly have to 'go' and the toilets are full occupied. and the loads are coming. fast.

yes it is. when you are attending a funeral.

yes it is. when you are reading this entry.

why so serious?

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she text me and told if i did not put her picture on my blog, she will kill herself and haunts me for life. then i told her, "why so serious, babe?"

and i know she will smile after reading this entry.

keh keh keh

useless words = you

useless sentences = i love you

if your heart is smart enough, figure this out.

hi there. if anyone there. if not, i'm just talking to myself. i am a big fan of music. famous or not, well-known or not, underground or mainstream, as long as the songs have some quality that fits my soul, i will definitely fall in love with the song. and for me, good songs must have these requirements :

- nice meaningful lyrics. (this is compulsory)
- nice melody with unique variety and identity.
- nice hot and sexy girl in the video clips. (kidding.)

duh. screw the list. who am i to judge. but i mean it with the nice meaningful lyrics. good songs are compulsory to have that quality. because from the lyrics, we can judge how the songs were really mean. not from the ear. but from the heart and from the soul. (it's always about the soul nigga). deep and meaningful lyrics plays the most important role to touch the heart of the listeners. sometime, if we did not carefully study the lyrics, we would never really know what the song really tell you about.

and for my own personal experience, i never knew that John Mayer's song, Your Body Is A Wonderland is song about a he and a she having a hot passionate sex (hot ke? i would never know) if i don't listen closely to the lyrics. well. i'm a malay. it takes a little time to understand the meaning of the song and i was just a little cute kid back then. heh. roughly, from the melody, the music and how John Mayer singing that song, u will never gonna figure it out when u heard it for the first time. maybe after a few time hearing it, u will totally figured that the song was really sooooo 18sx. like a softcore porn literature. i'm just wondering, how did the song passed through our local radio airplay? shouldn't there should be a screener for our local airplay? ( i just used the word screener and i hope u guys get what i mean )
so, lyrics, is a life to every songs. lyrics, if combined with a beautiful rhythm, melody and beat will become a great songs. plus the voice of the singer laa of course.

so let's start to understand this song. Back to Me by The All American Rejects.

a.

Hey you,
So you never really found your way.
Stay true,
Did you ever make it through today?

b.
I know that when I think about a day without it,
Everyday's the same.
You wish that you could find someone
But I'm the only one to blame

c.
Can't you see I beg and plead?
'Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you're gonna find your way back to me

d.
No don't
Don't you ever let a piece of me down
'Cause time won't
Get back when I'm never around

e.
When we live between so many walls
That I can barely breathe
You say that you just want someone
But I'm the only one you need

f.
Can't you see I beg and plead?
'Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you're gonna find your way

If it's me that you don't need
Then when the lights go out tonight
I know you're never gonna find your way

g.
Soon when I get you, I won't let you go
Ooh if I let you you can take away all that I thought was wrong
And if you hear me there's not much to say
There's gotta be a better way

h.
Can't you see I beg and plead?
'Cause when your eyes light up the sky tonight
I know you're gonna find your way back to me

Can't you see I beg and plead?
'Cause when the lights go out tonight
I know you're never gonna find your way

If it's me that you don't need
That when the lights go out tonight
I know you're never gonna find your way

i.
If you pace around the world [Incomprehensible]
And when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you're gonna find your way back to me

let us try to understand it part by part.

a. the singer try to persuade the girl / the one he loves ( in this case, we take it as a girl because homo sucks) with a couple of question. but i think, the singer are trying to ask the girl how is she doing after what they may have gone through.

b. we could see the singer is not doing quite well and the girl blame him because she cannot find other guys to be with. maybe the girl blame the singer because deep inside, she really wanted him and she still love him. or maybe she is just a stuck up bitch with an ego size of mount everest. well it is possible. heh.

c. here comes the chorus. the part where most people will remember. the chorus is quite sad and pathetic but the singer is truly love her. he beg and plead to the girl, hoping she would come back to him. notes to all of the girls out there, when a guy beg and plead or even cry to u, they maybe look weak and pathetic but u're the one who makes them like that. and it also means that the feeling they have towards you is true. so, if u find a guy, sensitive and down to earth enough, grab him. before he falls to another girls hand. and i know someone, who is just like that. sensitive and down to earth. look on the right side of the blog, there is a picture of a guy try to look as cool as he can with the cigarettes. heh. and he is an ex-smokers too.

d. the singer is actually can be divided into pieces. in this case, maybe he is a special human. maybe he is a Jigsaw Man. that have thousands of pieces. and he told the girl not to let a piece of him down. because he will be incomplete. it is his hope. and he stated that, things will never be the same when he is not around. the Jigsaw Man. he think he is complete if he had her in her life.

e. look. there is a wall. what kind of wall is that? is that a brick wall? the WWE indestructibles moves "wall of jericho"? from my side of view, their relationship or past relationship was having a communication problem. they can barely be truthful to each other. they didn't know each other very well. leaving so many walls that divide them. the singer can't really stand that way. he seems to suffer. he wanted to be the one for her. but the bitch ignores him. she wanted somebody else. she thinks he wasn't good enough. damn. what a @#%$$.

f. it is the second version of the chorus. again, the singer beg and plead, hoping the girl would open up her eyes and see that he is the one that she needed. but in the second part, the singer stated that if still she doesn't change her mind, she won't see him as the one for her.

g. this is the bridge. i believe so. the singer stated that if the girl accept him back, he will never let the girl go. he will move in the girl way. he will have all new perspectives about the girl. he will always make sure that the girl always right. he did not want to say anything. this man is insanely love her. he will do anything if she wants him back. he will always be satisfied with her. no more complaining. he will do anything to make the relarionship better. but it seems to me that the guy do nothing wrong to the girl. i still believe the girl is a bitch.


**here is the part where the lead guitarist starts licking. he bend hardly on a lower notes strings then he proceed with a moody scales slowly from the high octave then to the lower octave in quite a sequences. then he turn to a more aggressive chord progression licks that ended with a high notes bending and a little cosmetics. then dramatically another series of chords progression that are running to the lower octaves and ended with a chord.**


h. this is the most dramatic part of the chorus. the singer try to reach to the medium octave of his voice (tarik nipis la org kata) to delivers a little bit of emotion to the song. if i be the girl, i will definitely break down and cry and say " uuww.. how sweeet.. sob sob..". still, the singer is a fool. he has fall in love with a wrong girl. with a bitch. cold heartless bitch ( sejuk hati kurang jalang ).
someway somehow, he still believe and wanted the girl to find a way back to him. if only she could see.

i. the ending. the deep and meaningful ending. still concludes to one. the singer still hoping that the girl will be bright enough to find, a way back to him. he really love that bitch.

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conclusion.

1. the girl is a bitch. i hate her.
2. the singer is a sensitive and sweet just like the guy on the right side of this blog. kih kih kih.



the story in this song, is quite familiar to me. maybe i have experienced it. maybe not. heh.


there is no SEXUALITY DISCRIMINATION here. heheh. bangfes betei.

to song youtube's audio is available here

past, present then beyond.

okay. today is 20th of February 2010, which is 20/02/10, or 200210.

so, where we are now? where were we a year ago? and, where we will be next year?

it's all about forgetting, remembering, planning, predicting and doing, IT. so, what IT should be? is the IT should be a good or a bad things? who knows. only God knows. well, around this time on last year, it was the most crucial moment in my life. well then here i am now. so where were you? remember it, smile or laugh about it. and don't forget to learn from it. life, they supposed to be hard. and live it well, because we only live once.

and, where are we next year? plan it guys. and make that happen!

physics of life 101.

look around you. you can find a lot of things around. there are table, chair, window, iron bars, fence etc etc etc, and a lot of others stuff there right in front of your very eyes. (well actually it depends. if you are reading this in front of a mirror, u might only see yourself being stupid reading this entry. yeah. nailed it!)

well, have u ever really see all of those things deeply? i mean by it structures, design, colours, pattern, similarity, influences of the design and a lot more. and i think one things is quite in common which is all of those things are made by some materials. they could be iron, wood, fibre, glass, and etc etc etc. and, all of these materials have their strength. in physics, there is this things which called Material Science. This science investigates the relationship between the structure of materials at atomic or molecular scales and their macroscopic properties. (well i copied that from wiki. i'm not that genius. come on. i just a bit good at manipulating everything that could be manipulated. heh)

if you bright enough, maybe you have understand the idea of Material Science from a little explanation above. and its okay if you don't. it's okay to be stupid. (yeah!) now, we gonna go through a little bit about Strength of Materials. In materials science, the strength of a material is its ability to withstand an applied stress without failure. (wiki, of course.) and, the applied stress could be divided into three categories, which is tensile stress, compressive stress and shear stress.

well, like all those materials, human have strength too. that kind of strength is what i am trying to manipulate it in this entry a few moment after this.

strength of human, briefly can divided into two, mentally and physically. (in malay it is called zahir dan batin)

now let's manipulating and produce some useless thoughts using useless sentences.

i'm gonna started with mental strength of human. for me, it is just the same as in material science. (in this case it is manipulating science) mental strength of human is the ability of handling pressure or stress without having a breakdown and feeling depressed. mental of human are greatly tested when the human are under pressure such as having personal problem, lack of money to buy a lunch, traffic jamm, seeing all those irritating 'indie kids' and 'mat rempit' in front of Pavillion and a lot more. heh. all of this things, if human mental cannot handle it, it could leads to depression, breakdown, sleeping disorder, eating disorder, shopping disorder and wasting time surfing the internet in front of your computer without taking a bath for days.

what should you do if you are having a lot of stress and you don't think your mind couldn't handle it?

1. accept it. take it. be sad about it. be angry about it. be emotional. let it go. LET IT GO. it is never a good things to take a hard hit on you and try to act cool like nothing happen. come on. even Stone Cold Steve Austin have a feeling. Undertaker also cry when his puppy dies. just be emotional, normally. release them emotionally. okay? because, the hardest part to build a good mental strength is having emotional problem. it is normal to be emotional when you have to. because, it will help you from being emotional everytime. and, janganla emotional lama lama sangat. nanti orang menyampah tau. (dan, don't be emotional for a long time. or people will get irritated by you.) emotional phase doesn't have to be so long. and it depends. on who? of course, yourself. the shorter its period means the tougher you are. yeargh!

2. talk to some people. shares. it is good. share with them. but don't ask them to solve it for you. ask them just to listen. it is better telling your problem to somebody than having a hard time sleeping by thinking about it. if they could give an advice, take it. just don't ask them to solve your problem okay? it is your responsibilities. it's cool to have responsibilities. heh.

3. ( your own solutions for handling your stress here. a little tips, always go for the positive. say never to the negative.)

so, what you have to do to have a good mental strength? first thing first, remember, you have The One and Only God. i am a proud muslim and my One and Only God would be Allah S.W.T. remember to always remember, u have your God by your side. but please, don't remember your God only when you have a problem. remember Him always. I am serious about this. so, whenever you feel like no one could help u, there is always God. My advice, never try to stay away from Him. always keep Him close to u. someway somehow, your spiritual health will be at their very peak. pray, and be close to your God. always love Him as He always love u.

be ready to be hit really really bad and fall really really hard in your life. because when u stand up after the hit, u will never fall again.

for the human physical strength, well it's not really a good topic for me to manipulate it at the moment. i'll manipulate it later if it cross my mind someday. (the author just don't have any idea)

so, it's a long entry. good job boys and girls. u made it to the very end. and u can conclude one conclusion in this entry (and the past and maybe in present), that i just manipulate my ideas and turn it into words and nothing in the introduction or the titled actually connected to the end of my entry. that's my point. that i don't really have one. heh. never give up, boys and girls. manipulate your future. make it better, or looks better. heh.

the truth,

i'm quite fucked up a.t.m but i always remember, that God is always with us.

let's build some strength.

words of wisdom from Afiq Safwan Ariffin,

" u are just the same like the other people standing next to u. come in this world with nothing. u are only consider special, if you are born in Pavillion, Kuala Lumpur . So jangan la macam macam sangat. "

haha. useless. eh?

let's talk.

well. it is my first entry for quite a long time since i've been a hardcore bloggers.


i wanna talk.

i've been poisoned. by Movies and Drama.

Movies and Drama, i believed sometimes they are just created to make our brain to think all the way around. they diverge the proper way of how your brain should accept and think about something or situations. those things are so powerful and they could really touch you, till the deepest part of human, which is the Emotions.

well Emotions, they are complicated. Emotions, sometimes they could be good. sometimes they could be just plain bad. the key is how others accepting them. for others to accept them nicely, they have to have something called Love. well i'm sure, if u have a lot of "emotional activities" going on, no one except your loved ones would try to understand those "activities" that you had. cause those "activities" could be really disturbing to others and sometimes they do annoyed. maybe a counselor or a therapist could be the one who doesn't really have to have love to help u. they will always just listen and give some good kick-ass advice that really could change your life. but if you open your eyes real big, u'll see love. love to all those cash you have paid them just to make them listen and nod. heh.

and then, it will always end up talking about something called Love. I'm not the appropriate person to talk anything about Love. all i know, love could spread, in many shapes, forms and sizes. you can feel and see love from your loved ones through how they looked at you. how they spoke at you. how they treated you. how they cares about you. and a lot more of others "how they fill in the blanks you". love could come from any people around you. your friends, your roomates, your family, your teachers, your neighbour, and etc etc etc of all those your's your's your's. but don't be surprised because love, could also come from someone who wasn't your's, your's your's such as from a guy who give his seat to u on the commuter trains, the restaurant waitress who charge less than what u've eaten on the restaurant and etc etc etc. blah blah blah. those people surely have love. and they are trying to be nice. definitely. and well, i didn't forgot. a lot of people say, the greatest and the most pampering love, will surely come from a people called, "The Lover".

speak of The Lover, i am completely clueless. i am just another average 21 y/o guy. and all those 21 years, i've been totally in love just three times. i've broke all those 3 poor girls heart, and quite bad. till now, i feel really guilty about it. and the last girl also kinda break my heart. till pieces. till ashes. till whatever that may sounds like it was completely bad, worst, and worst than completely bad. heh. so, i don't really know what to talk about, and how to talk about when it comes to "The Lover". and i'm totally single and available, heh for The One.

but, thank you. for wasting your precious time reading this useless entry cause i just made it up by myself and not of all of it were completely true. or helping? plus all of those broken grammar i've made, on behalf of English Language, my deepest apologize goes to all of you. thank you and may we talk again, through dusk and dawn, through rise and fall, through gloomy and sunny, through tears and happiness, through breakfast or brunch till dinner or lunch, or maybe through PLUS or SMART, as long as my brain could spit all of these useless junks, i will, try my best, to spit them directly to your face. heh. i've spit. and u've been hit.

dethroned.

Hi, I'm afiq. I am not the handsome prince riding on the back of a white horse and definitely not the pale white skin vampire driving the all - classy Volvo. heh. Welcome to the place where I gather all my useless words and sentences.


"never sure it was the night, never sure it was right.
what seem to be hard never supposed to be heard.
and deep inside it should not be kept alive."


-and what's that supposed to mean? heh. that is another piece of my useless words.